Orphaned into slavery

Often times i feel like a spiritual orphan in slavery... to my own fear...my fear of the future..my fear of surrender.. my fear of what God will do with my loved ones and with me if I give them and myself up to Him. I have grown up in a often legalistic culture where I must do my best FOR God (as if He needed my help) and that I must avoid sin at all costs, as if not sinning was righteousness. It often felt like I was seeking to not make a mistake and that the moment I failed God was there waiting with His whip to stripe my back... He felt like merely a master.. it felt as if I'd been left in this world, orphaned and in slavery... Little did I know that the chains of legalism, orpahnhood and slavery had been shattered... I have Sonship in Him... Sonship is a position..it can never be revoked. A son is secure in His Father's love and favor... I must strive no longer but rest in His love..I am a son...

Romans 8:15 "For [the Spirit which] you have now received [is] not a spirit of slavery to put you once more in bondage to fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption [the Spirit producing sonship] in [the bliss of] which we cry, Abba (Father)! Father!"

Galatians 3:26 "You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus."

Galatians 4:3-7 "So also, when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world. But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. Because you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, “Abba,[a] Father.” So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has made you also an heir.

John 14:18 "I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you."

Hebrew 13:5 "I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down relax My hold on you)![Assuredly not!]"